"something"

Nervous as hell sitting in the waiting room.

They are running behind on the day I need to get answers soonest! ACK.

Thankfully DH is there to hold my hand as I wanted to burst into tears right in the waiting room without knowing anything.

I guess that's the kicker. NOT KNOWING ANYTHING is not only the kicker, it's killer. I tell ya, I'm so glad I didn't forget my deodorant this morning.

After waiting half undressed for another 8 mins 25 secs (but who's counting?) in the exam room, the nurse and doc arrive.

"How are you?". Geez, if I could ONLY say what I'm thinking. "HOW THE FUCK DO YOU THINK I AM? SHOVE THAT DILDO UP THERE AND LET'S GET ON WITH THIS!!!!".

"I'm nervous" is all I say with more tears about to stream now.

He puts the transducer in and tells me he sees "something" in the uterus. "Possible gestational sac".

What else can it be if it's not a sac?

A blood clot.

Gee, thanks for keeping me hopeful.

I realize they need to remain cautious too but is he the most clinical doctor EVER.

He again asked if there were sharp pains or spotting. 

No. I'm pretty tolerant to pain but I think I'd know what "sharp" feels like and what I have is more crampy discomfort but not on a continuous basis. 

So the final report is that my ovaries look good and there is something in my uterus that could be either a blood clot or a gestational sac. I'll take door number 2, please.

I guess tubes aren't visible that way because he made no mention of my tubes.

He pretty much says there is "no structure" yet and he wants me back for blood tomorrow and another ultrasound on Friday. "We should be able to see a structure on Friday if this is a gestational sac".

So a big sigh of relief came around 8.35ish am EST this morning. Another hurdle jumped. 

I'd like to jump right to Friday with even BETTER news.